Struggling so hard not to strike a nerve,
Questioning myself whether it’s just a phase or
Is this loneliness what I truly deserve?
Cause other people’s happiness
Spills around as they walk in pairs
And I can’t help getting caught in the flood.
Infuriated by that sweet smell of success
I hide my killer glare behind a senseless faсade.
I’m merely a human and I want to believe
That I can keep control, that I can possibly forgive
When the waves are rushing, coming up to my neck,
Because envy breeds envy
And nothing but envy
And I hit the deck.
Lots of people around me look so benign,
Teasing me with what they have and I do not.
I can't decide if I should have a happy denial
Or continue to suspect a vile plot.
Cause misery loves company
But it seems to have an exception for me
So I’m stuck here all alone instead,
Feeling like I’m hurt by everything I see,
And what I want to have, and what I want to forget.
I’m merely a human and I want to believe
That I can keep control, that I can possibly forgive
When my own imagination is making me sick,
Because envy breeds envy
And nothing but envy,
It’s raging inside of me
As I hit the deck.